Lyrics from Rob Thomas', "Small Wonders"

let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind
if it's me you need to turn to
we'll get by,
it's the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now

in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders still remain

Acceptance

I realized there is a great deal of power and peace in acceptance.

I decided to stay and try to work things out with Spartacus but couldn't face publishing on the subject. It makes me feel like a liar, to be so adamant about leaving "this time" and then backing away yet again.

Much has changed within me. Not to say that I've discovered a love I didn't know I had for him, but rather for myself.

I'm still leaving, just not this very moment. I feel a very firm "wait" being said to me. The time is close but not yet at hand. And I'm okay with that.

I've learned to listen to my intution. Since beginning the blind faith of acceptance of things given and shown to me, I find it much easier to function. I'm sleeping better, I feel better, I'm a much nicer me.

I was going to take down all of the in-between posts. Between October's post ... the beginning of all of this-the trip where it all started to dawn on me ... that I am capable, vital and connected and the journey toward making decisions ... and today; I wanted to hide it all. But you know what? It happened. And I'm proud of it because I'm in the game rather than sitting in the stands watching my own life unfold. Just realizing that is a great feeling.

Each day a new and great blessing is made obvious. I've learned that asking and receiving really do go hand in hand. I am grateful daily. Life, regardless of the moment, is wonderful.

More soon.